A long journey ahead, make sure you are strong enough

My life so far has been filled with so-called crazy months before i got a slight surprise from my doctor who said that i got depression! Of course, the assumption of my doctor does not make my life stay away from crazy things but it changed the way i treat my life so much.

I believe that everyone has his own stress, noone among us has no stress at all, do we? Mine not really comes from work, school or friends, actually, I'm completely fine with those things. It's from my family, which seems really happy and have nothing to worry. Now you guess a part of it! Yes, it's totally converse, which makes me spend my whole life finding ways to get out of it, to make money in order to help my mom, and to live my life. Having short of money makes my dad become so mean and nasty, but i do not accept my life to be spoited by the situation, so i just work while keeping up appearances. Everytime i see a fight between the two people, i just work to forget it. I did it all the time until the day i realised that my mind was losing. I was losing my awareness, i was not able to remember anything even my name, i was not able to control myself, etc. That's when i met my doctors. One told me to use some medicines which causes me sleep all day, and one convinced me to give up my task, do yoga so as to avoid using medicines. So i followed the second one.

I works! I swear!

I have never taken this serious in my life but it turned out that i was so wrong!

I quit my new job at the best company you can ever see in life. I took a 3 - month yoga course,...In 2 weeks, i did literally nothing. Taking a yoga class, i learned to breath, how to do mediation, it's just when you breath out or in, just think about breathing out and in. That helps your mind train itself, raises the level of focusing. 

My mind came back after that, it's been working quite well till now. To me, the experience was magical! 

Another tip i tell myselt from this is to careless. My mistake was to be too caring, I thinked about my parents too much that i forced myselt overdo then i received nothing! It's paintfull that noone sees your efforts or they do but even do not appreciate it,  but the fact is noone will care about yourself as much as you do! When something bad happens, it's only you to cope with it in silent, they're only human, they have the right to be ungrateful. The only way to love others is to love yourself  first. If you want to have more than others have, to carry for not only your life but others', you must have much stronger health than others! To work for a better life, if you don't have health, what else can you do? I tried, trust me, as not until it's gone did i realised how undervalued it was.
So what are you waiting for? Stand up, take a glass of water, do mediation, do yoga, tabata, etc, anything you can come up with! Eat clean, stay healthy and nutrient your soul! Build up values that make more values.

That's all, to start a new chapter, you have to prepare well. 

Good luck!